deception

so close and yet so far,
arms always around me
and yet somehow absent -
in the smallest of things
i feel cold and small.

contrary to appearances,
things can be deceptive
and draw you in only to
let you go prematurely
and leave you with nothing.

printed cards emblazoned
with two names, united.

shoving the truth in my face,
with no room for ambiguity.

i thought we were together
i thought it wouldn't end
i thought you said you loved me,
no lies slipping through your teeth.

but slip they did, like eels in oil,
and now i am left with no one
to spend my nights with

or take to your wedding.